In the Life

I had another project to do. I had to write a speech, but I did it today and I think it was okay. It wasn't something you had to study for or anything. People did it impromptu. I said some humorous things during it, so I think I got a good grade. Hopefully.
At school, we're supposed to be reading a book. It's called Sleeping Freshmen Never Lie. Of course, I finished it the day after we got it. It was actually pretty interesting. It was about a kid in his first year of high school. Of course, I couldn't relate to some of it. No one has ever smacked me on the head on the bus. I got to a pretty good high school, so it probably won't happen, either.
I've decided I want to get into Harvard! (I must have said that a gazillion times.) Still, I want to. I'm trying to become more outgoing, so I'll have a better chance of being accepted somewhere. But every extra activity at school has to cost something...it's a conspiracy.

High school is such a drag. I've only been in school for two days, and I already have homework! Ugh. I'm so frustrated. High school isn't that different from middle school, except everyone's older and you have classes with different grade levels. Also, the hallways are definitely more crowded. It takes me a while to get to all of my classes, which are spread all around the building. I also found out that I have to take a Graduation test this year because I'm in advanced classes (yes, I'm smart).

The school year has just started and I'm already tired.

I felt kind of useless today. I'm pretty bad at making friends. It's harder for me to talk to people. I usually take it personally, the fact that no one is talking to me. So, I felt pretty down today. Then I took this online depression test and got a high score. (Yeah, my day was pretty bad.)

My classes are okay, I guess. The only class that bugs me (besides Spanish, it's so boring) is Biology. I'm not supposed to be in Biology, actually. It's an advanced class. I really don't know a thing about science. You can't drop out of a hard class, though. I have a project due in two days, and I don't know exactly what I want to do.

And I also made a new goal! I want to go to Harvard someday. I shall make something of myself and be happy. I will be popular.

I hope I can do all of these things. I don't know what will happen to me if I fail.

I am starting to be honest. So, I will tell you my opinion about the N becoming Teen Nick, from the point of view of an almost high schooler.
Honestly? I think they might as well change the name to Tween Nick. That's who is going to eventually start watching it. Whenever something is originally for teens or about teens, tweens are the ones who become obsessed with it. Take High School Musical. It's about High School. But did the high school girls and boys go watch it? No. It was the tweens who made it so popular.
It's not fair. The N is such a wonderful channel. I love Degrassi. I do. I love the Fresh Prince of Bel-air, and That 70's Show. I don't get why they're adding things like iCarly, True Jackson, VP, and Unfabulous. Sure, I like the first two, but would I call them teen shows? No. Do you ever see Degrassi blankets and shoes? Of course not. Those things are targeted toward tweens. Degrassi is obviously not.
My opinion? It's nice that Nick is the chairman, I suppose. As long as he keeps things targeted toward teens, not tweens, I'm happy. But Teen Nick? That is a bad change. My memories of Teen Nick are still scarred by shows that weren't for teens at all. I wish the N wouldn't change. It's wonderful just the way it is.

I just finished Just Listen by Sarah Dessen. I was thinking about it the other day. In it, a lonely girl makes friends with a strange boy who only tells the truth. Annabel (the lonely girl) shared her thoughts with him. In real life, it's not that easy. How do you know what your thoughts are? How do you know if you are lying if you only lie?
Like me, for example. Am I lying if I don't give my thoughts on things? Am I cheating anyone who decides to read this out of actually getting to know me? Am I cheating middle schoolers out of the real high school experience? Am I? Is this lying?
I don't really know what I think honesty is. I doubt that I could ever call myself an honest person. But I've decided that on here, I will try to be honest. I will give my complete opinion on things, so that I am no longer just some stranger on the other side of the computer but a flesh and blood person. I will become honest.
And maybe, trying this, I will come to know what honesty truly is and is not.

i went to the high school a few days ago. i saw a bunch of my friends there. even a couple of people if wouldn't go as far to call my friends waved and said hi to me. i got a tour around the high school (which was humongous). it was a pretty interesting experience, i guess. i'm going into high school. i can hardly believe it.

later, the freshmen had to go to the high school to "make new friends" and "get a tour of the high school." we also got our schedules. i suppose i should have tried to make friends, but that's either said than done. one thing that stands out in my mind is when I was told to partner up with someone.

i actually ended up with this very cute guy. annoyingly, he didn't take part in the activity we were supposed to be doing. he just kept looking around like he was the coolest dude in the world. he never even once looked me in the eye. i admit it--i was irritated. so, instead of saying anything to him, i talked to the girl next to me from my old school. she wasn't talking to her partner, either.

guess we failed that activity.

school hasn't even started yet and i have homework. i have an english assignment which involves remembering events that happened to me. ugh. if i wanted to remember i'd just do it. i have a problem with my memory (think i hit my head), so this is going to be loads of fun. i'm sure i'll get it done in no time, so it's alright. (i'm an overachiever.)

i'm starting high school soon and i created this blog to document my experiences. i want people to see what high school is really like and, when i'm gone, i want this blog to remain. i was, i am, and i will.
i'm going to start things off with my hopes for this school year. at the end i'll be able to compare.

i hope: that i will make a lot of friends. i'd like to learn japanese, join a sport, and get in a large variety of after school activities. i'd also like to win a writing contest.

i fear: that i'll be a loner and end up with absolutely no friends at all. that i will be someone that people will think, "who was that again?"

i am (right now): i am a writer. i am a thinker. i see the beauty in everything. i try to try new things. i am someone.